Love. My ultimate desire. I watch people fall in and out of love. Once in a blue moon I get caught up in the whole love game. Not very often though. Most of the time I don't feel much towards another. I never seem to feel a connection. I have had people try, some have even tried for a couple of years now but nothing. I feel nothing. I can't seem to find my magic story in their eyes. But sometimes, just sometimes comes this person. It is like something about them that just stops me in my tracks...but nothing manifests from it. I just get caught up in this stupor only to be disappointed.
Watching people go on with their lives. Watching love ebb and flow in their lives, watching them reach new levels of happiness, the ecstasy in their smile and voice, watching them in turmoil when they hit that hard rock and watching them fall in love again...and in all that time of seeing this, I am alone. So I go out, I mingle and meet people. But nothing. I feel nothing. No connection. Empty!
Then I get caught up in my own life. Just when I comprehend that I am indeed alone and that is just the way things are along comes this person who sets off the fireworks in the sky, that ties knots in my stomach when they are around and makes me feel like i have drank too much beer and I'm dazed when they leave. He start to see me with wonderment and amazement. He slowly creeps up and becomes significant in my life. Slowly the wheels are set in motion. I finally start enjoying the ride and I set myself free and enjoy this feeling...he's gone...I'm sitting by myself again.
